Thursday, October 31, 2013

Dear God...Is there Kindergarten in Heaven?

The world was still for a while, I had a moment of peace and quiet and my eyes were fixated on a picture of you.  You were only 3 weeks old when the picture was taken, and being unsure of how it might turn out or how you might react to the camera, your momma took a chance anyway.  Thank God she did, because out of that we got this...

My sweet little's hard to believe it's been 6 years since you came into this world.  This year would have been another milestone for you, starting school.  I sometimes wonder what you'd be like had we gotten the chance to have you here with us on earth.  I know God had another plan, a bigger plan, one beyond more than I could ever possibly try to imagine...but it still hurts sometimes.  So I gotta ask, is there kindergarten in Heaven?  How do you learn your letters and numbers?  Again, I'm sure God's got it all covered ;-)

I'm beyond blessed to be called your aunt and while I wish things would've turned out differently, while I wish we had more time with you here on earth, I have to believe that God has an amazing plan. He always does and I've already seen it unfold a bit.  I see the life and love in your big sister and little brothers that we were privileged enough to see in you, even if only for 5 months.  I see the grace and mercy that abounds through your Mama and Daddy as they are given opportunities to minister and support other families that have lost a child to the very thing we lost you to.  God's ways are much higher than ours, so who am I to argue with the one who created all things and knows all things.  

As another birthday passes all I can simply do is remember you, the baby boy I had the honor and privilege of holding, loving on, and praying for.  Your life plays a significant part in my life and my story.  Praise God that He used such a sweet and small little boy to teach a silly, sometimes OCD, and busy bodied young woman like me.  I'm forever grateful for that!

I love you William Thomas Jr., you are my sweet little prince laughing and running and enjoying the eternal life that God has designed for you.

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain.  All these things are gone forever." ~ Revelation 21:4 (NLT)

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