Last night I had a wonderful conversation with a dear friend. He's not someone I see often, but when we do hang out and catch up I seem to take something away that goes deep into my soul and God reveals so much of my current situation out of it all. One thing I realized last night is that moving on, a case of "out of sight, out of mind" does not indicate forgiveness. We all have our ways of dealing with stuff and finding our way through forgiving others, I guess for me I'm still learning. I've recently run into a bit of a situation from my past and the anger that arose from this recent revelation was insane. There are very few times in my life that I can remember screaming at God so loudly and what took place a few weeks ago was no different. I couldn't believe what I saw and I was bitter down to the deepest part of me. I guess a part of me still is. How have I dealt with it... not very well, in fact you'll probably find me laughing it off more than anything. But as I was talking to my friend last night he shared a bit with me that got me to thinking, is it ever too late to say "I'm sorry," to take responsibility for one's own actions and ask another for forgiveness? I played a part in a scenario that occurred almost 2 years ago, has too much time passed or is there still a chance to make amends, to wipe the slate clean and not only ask for forgiveness from another, but forgive myself as well?
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Learning to Forgive...
So I'm supposed to be studying Life Span Development right now (which I totally love), however I've been told when you have goobles and goobles (a new word I just made up, when I have time I'll submit it to Merriam-Webster) of emotional junk in your head, it is best to splurge it out on paper (or in this case blog site). So here I go spreading my newest revelation in my what has now become the "Learning" series of blogs (2 makes a series... right?).